Is it weird I'm developing a degree of female-identification?

When I was a bit younger (13 or so) I came to the conclusion that I was a man. I want to be physically male. However, I didn't, and never did, want to take on the male gender role. I don't mean just the stereotypical "beers and b*tches" role, but nearly ALL of the connotations societyhas attached to being man-identified and having a male body are repugnant to me and in my opinion are rooted in patriarchy, which I oppose. I tried to be a man for two years in an attempt to get approved for hormones and such, but I decided I was repressing who I am as a person. I want to be physically male, but I am just not fitting of the societal role of masculinity. However, I don't particularly like the feminine gender role either, though I am more suited for it. I feel like neither society's constructs of masculinity nor femininity suit who I am as a person. I thus identify as gender queer broadly and grrrly boi or boigrrrl as a specific category. For a man, I was considered very feminine. For a woman, I am considered rather masculine. Lately, where I've been simply doing as I wished regardless of the gender role igned to it, I have developed a degree of identification with female masculinity. It seems a bit different than the role of male masculinity, and seems to be a role I can tolerate for work (since unfortunately in this day-and-age, I can't be genderqueer in the work place, but in my area a butch girl wouldn't raise eyebrows) if I change it slightly), though everywhere outside of work I'd rather be my androgynous, genderqueer self. With look I want to be masculine but without disguising my female body and longish, androgynous hair. Previously, I had identified, oddly, with male femininity. It could be a survival thing. The reality is I can't p as a femme man because I am very obviously biologically female, but I can p as a soft butch to some people. Is this odd?